Watching

What do I need in an ending? I need to communicate that they both fulfill/ change the nature of their wants. They both need to choose to leave together.

Or do they. Can we leave the "leaving" up to the audience? Can they decide for us? We don't have to see the hero get the girl, because this isn't that kind of play. Their decision that being together is slightly less shitty that being apart is not a heroic choice, just a strong one.
I don't want a hallmark ending. That's right out of good endings and into suck. I don't want happy. neither, however, do i want sad, angsty, or abstracted. I don't want this to feel like a livejournal post by a 15-yr old.
So let's try again.

Jennifer
Forget the cop. Stop letting everything scare the --

David
Not scared, terrifi---

Jennifer
Shut Up! It doesn't matter which is which. I don't care if you're scared, terrified, or bowel-quakingly happy. You don't get to take this away from me.

David
This is mine, my bench, my piece of the park, my sunday, my bizarre fucked up weekend ritual. Until 15 minutes ago, you didn't even know that you could do this, didn't even know I --

Jennifer
I do know. And you don't get to take that away. You can't.

David
Fucking watch. [leaves]

Jennifer
Shit.

David
[returning, sitting, pause] I'm sorry. You're right, I shouldn't take this away from you. It was... just mine, y'know?

Jennifer
I'm sorry too. I didn't mean to... well, yeah, I did mean to, but--

David
Yeah. I know.

Jennifer
I kinda suck at apologizing.

David
Yeah, you do.

Jennifer
[beat] What is the difference?

David
The difference in what?

so what the hell is the difference: why is terrified so special?
can't stop
control?
magnitude
what was i afraid of last night? why did i get that drunk?
scared or terrified?
terrified. when you're already out of control, the only solution is to get further out.
not the only solution, but what feels like the best is to lose control, abdicate it.
why is october the third so terrifying? too big an emotion to control, have to nibble at the edges. get just a little into the hurt zone, then back off and find some way to stop the hurt. in last night's case, that was getting drunk. sometimes it's getting stoned, sometimes its getting distracted. sex, video games, TV, biking, writing.
terrified is loss of control, feels out of your control, feels too big to be controlled.
what does that have to do with D being in the park? why here? what helps?
distraction?
So why can scared be controlled? other people? will?
if there's an absence of will, do we need other people?
scared can be controlled by having other people in your life. not people that help, necessarily, just people who are there
so why does D make up these stories for people in the park?